Here we go....again

 The hospital bags are packed and ready to go....3 years ago that would have meant, "Get this kid out of me I'm ready to deliver." This week it means we are ready for surgery...again.

Our little Superman goes back in for surgery this Friday. We begin round 2, the next phase, leg lengthening.

Going into surgery this time around is such an interesting wave of emotions. There is less anxious feelings, but at the same time anxiety.  I'm excited, scared, happy, and frightened all in one. 

Less anxious feelings because I know what to expect this time- well at least with handing my child over for surgery. I understand better the feelings I will have come surgery day and know it's okay and natural.

An excitement and happiness knowing my baby will start his journey to two even legs! While even after all that is said and done after this surgery/ recovery-JP's leg will have about a 2 cm difference, it will be the closes his legs have been to even in a long time!

But yet the sadness ...

Of having to hand your baby over for surgery. This still haunts me, but I'm coming to realize this part will never be easy. Also JP will be in an external fixator for 5 or so months- this is new territory for us and that's scary too.

Of going through his closet tonight and starting to packet his pants away. The pants that haven't been altered to work with his external fixator and will never wear again.

 

Of worrying about Aiden. Not just how this will effect him this time,  but keeping track of who will have him  and making sure he gets to school on time, has what he needs for school and so on.

Keith and I met with JPs doctor last week just to get a run down of things again. The surgery this time should only be 4 hrs, as oppose to the 7 or so last time. We also learned the actual lengthening process will be about 60 days/ 2 months. So while he'll be in an ex- fix for 5 mos, we will only have to turn pins for 2.... Yes that's a sigh if relieve you here from me.

So we are learning and adapting with every phase of this process, but still feeling confident about our decision in saving JPs leg. So please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we go through this next step. Pray for us to handle the rigorous  PT process (it'll be 5 times initially), for limited pin site infections, and for JP handling his "superman leg"!

We will be sure to keep you posted on how things are going.